Heres something i have recently found while trudging through my folders of various writing. I started to write a book in 2007 and heres a little chapter of it….its unfinished but thought it would be intresting read for you guys mabe youu’ll get an insight as to how i viewed things 4 years ago! ENJOY
Chapter one
Life strains the best of people but somehow we always manage to get through it, why is that? Because everybody has somebody even if its un-requited love, everyone always has someone they can depend on.
2007 anyone can do what they want nothing in this day an age is impossible and as an individual stuck out in this big bad cold world what corner do you start from? Who’s going to guide you, who’s going to pay your way?
Most people go through adolescents flitting in and out of relationships lusting for infatuation, that special person that they will spend the rest of time with, but yet still in the corner of there minds they know full well that it’s a phase and its all about ‘life’ experiences. Years ago young couples at 17 were tying the knot grasping hold of that feeling in fright of war and loosing loved ones. Life wasn’t as world wide and everything was minimal job opportunities weren’t as common. The purpose of life was to breed and carry the family name. Now teens of today have so many different expectations frustration and confusion it’s causing them to make decisions they possible can’t make.
Love
Love……under-rated, over rated but whatever it is we can’t live without it.
One of my own single handily favourite quote is: The heart that pumps our very own blood around our very own body to survive is the symbol of love could this portray we need love to survive? By Kat Walker
Why do we hunger for passion, comfort and warmth? To make the time we have on this earth as meaningful as we can. Are we to scared to walk through life alone that much so we settle for 2nd best? Becoming dependent on someone we don’t actually want to share life with! If we had our desired ‘soul mate’ there would be no dependency what so ever it would be team work, nothing would be a task or a chore it would be a luxury! (I mean we all know it doesn’t work that way but in an ideal world that’s how it is)
The norm “relationship” it always follows a very basic and ‘regular’ pattern. Create and physical attraction with the desired opposite, talk about mundane meaningless facts about yourself in hope the other will clasp onto one or two of these and become interested, create time to be around each other, dining, cinema I figured on the first ‘date’ people like to venture out maybe this avoids silent moments? When physical and mental attraction is initiated, after follows the crucial decision point intercourse (the closet you can and could be with a person) relationship or no relationship? (of course this is a very basic analysis)
The way I approach this whole ‘relationship’ fiasco is………too many people hold back what they want and get it confused for what they need. You want chocolate cake but you need a salad, what would make you happier. You want this person but you need more time, time for what, figure them out get an understanding of how capable the person is of hurting that very heart that in theory will die eventually?
Why are you scared of being hurt? Will it ruin your pride, image, dignity or respect? No and the reason being if you had any or all of them then you created them independently for yourself. True factors of those things can only be made by you and there placed in your mind, body and soul nobody can rob what’s been installed into you only you can rob it from yourself.
The worst kind of pain is the emotional type, a bruise fades a cut heals but love burns the heart leaving wounds for you alone to heal and if you have pride and dignity you will do it alone and if you have an image you won’t let anyone see its getting to you and last but not least if you have respect fr yourself you’ll give the other person respect for their decision.
When the same thing is important everyday that means it’s a part of you. What you can live without tomorrow you can live without forever.
Did your heart really get ‘broken’? If your heart ‘broke’ I’m sure you would be 10ft under the soil. Is it really hard to find happiness? What makes you smile, what opens your eyes to reality ?
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